Sad, grateful and tired

I have had quite a strange week. I have been following little Gavin Owens website over the last week and felt very sad as he earned his angel wings. At the same time am I so grateful that Bella did not have a metabolic or mitochondrial disease as it was initially thought. I am also tired, very tired of not knowing what the future holds. But at least Bella is with me, is moving forward, is wanting me, is happy and is alive!